Broken
Broken
brkoen
bokern
brkeon
broken
breken
broken
broken brken
broken brken broken
Tears
Keep falling
can't stop
crying
nothing is fair
and nothing is kind
and everything hurts
all of the time
everything
is twisted
in lies
and untruths
and gaslighting
and manipulating
and guilt tripping
and making me crazy
like I have lost my mind
like I am confused
like I can't remember
like I remember wrong
I am always wrong
and he tricked me
He tricked me
He. Tricked. Me.
He! Tricked! Me!
He tricked me
and I am the fool
and I saw the red flags
but I thought it was fine
I thought I was strong
and could handle it all
but he lied to me
and he tricked me
and then he made me feel crazy
and twisted and turned
the truth and the lies
until I thought it was me
For years and years and years
and years and years
I thought it was me
I was so twisted up in his love
in his lies
in his tricks and deceit
and I loved
and I loved and I loved
so I forgave
and blamed myself
and carried on
and carried on
but the lies never stopped
and it just got worse
and one day I saw the truth
and I can't extricate myself from the lies
I don't know where they end
or begin
or if there is truth
or if it is all lies
Which part was true?
Is my entire marriage a lie?
What do I do?
and how do I carry on?
when the person I love
isn't anyone I know
when his lies are more normal
than truth is to me
When a lie is as simple as breath
and his subterfuge is impossible to see
and he twists and he twists
everything that I am
everything that I see
and I do not feel safe
it is like my whole life is a game and I have to question every single thing
was any of it real?
he has messed up my mind so completely
I don't know
except that I am broken
and he doesn't even flinch
when he tells me a new truth
that was a lie for so long
doesn't even flinch
or show any emotion
when I am on my knees
unable to breathe with the shock of it
He just keeps on
like it is normal
to drop a big lie bomb on your wife
like she should just endure it
just accept it
like she has for 14 years
broken
broken
broken
broken
and I don't know if theres enough
gold glue to piece me back together again
January 7, 2024
